Happy Father's Day Patrick

Last year Patrick had his official first Father's Day.  I was 4 months pregnant and we were about to find out the next day that we were going to have a girl.  We celebrated at my parents house.  Patrick got 2 cards. One from me and one from my parents-which I still have both.  I also gave him a dress shirt that was purple and white gingham.  I will be having that shirt and one other of his made into a dress for Olivia.  I remember the ride back to Milwaukee after dinner.  We talked about how this was his first official, yet unofficial First Father's Day.  It turned out to be his only one.  We talked about how excited we were to be parents and find out if it was a girl or boy.  He guessed girl and I guesses boy.  He was right:)

Patrick opening his Father's Day card with Rachel and Eli

This year on Father's Day will be a little different.  Olivia will be celebrating Father's Day with Grandpa and not her daddy.  I'm sure everyone will say that "He's looking down from heaven and being a father to her up there." He might be.  But the one thing I know for sure, is that he's not here with us on Father's Day.  He should be.  I'm mad that he's not here.  I'm sad and upset that he never got the chance to be a dad.  There are so many other dads out there that give that chance away so easily.  He wanted it and never got it.  It's not fair.

Will Olivia ever have a dad?  Will she have someone to play sports with in the yard?  Will she have a dad to take her fishing for the first time?  Will she have a dad to attend school for donuts with dad or her first father/daughter dance?  Will she have a dad looking out for her when she has her first boyfriend?  Will she have a dad to walk her down the aisle at her wedding?  Will she have a dad to see all of her first moments?  These are things I think about all the time for her.  I'm not worried about me, I'm worried about her and the loss of a father figure in her life.  It's not fair to her.  One bit.

Olivia is now 7 months old.  She is sitting up by herself very well.  She started doing some scooting on her tummy and an army crawl.  She can entertain herself and play for over an hour.  She's eating cereal, carrots, squash, sweet potatoes and apple sauce.  She's a good eater and loves all the food so far.  She loves being outside and feeling the wind on her face.  She loves watching the kids play.  She loves playing with her cousin Kate.

Olivia up North at Katie and Mike's

I'm still driving to Milwaukee 3-4 days a week for work.  It's going very well and staying very busy.  Not much time with Olivia during the work week, but we have our time on the weekends.  We've been continuing to be busy every weekend.  BBQ's, Walleye Weekend, trips up North, visiting family, parties, etc.  Not sure when we have a weekend free soon...

Hope to catch up with everyone over the summer.  Enjoy the nice weather!